Work has been going great for me. I work for a great homebuilder doing marketing and some sales on the side. I have thought a lot about "sales" recently... I think it is something that I am good at. Really good at actually... but I don't LOVE the thrill of sales. I certainly never want to be paid on commission only but I realize that this is where the big bucks are. What do I do? I have this inner battle within me. Not that my place of employment is even offering me a full time sales job, but even if they did, I don't think I would be able to accept it.
When I was in high school I was actually hospitalized for STRESS. Yup, you read that right. I am such a perfectionist that I was hospitalized for stressing myself out. I took my role as the eldest brother very seriously and I felt that if I slipped up that the rest of my siblings would follow suit and my parents life would be a failure. Kind of crazy don't you think? But it is the truth. Fortunately I was able to overcome that for a time, but now I am back in the old stress saddle. I am forever going to be worried about being successful. I wonder if there is a solution to this dilemma. If any of you readers out there have a remedy for this... please share. Otherwise I will just keep trucking a long hoping for the best.
I can't believe how random my writing can be. Look at this, in the short amount of time that I have written this, and you have read it, I have talked about the movie the Dark Knight, my dilemma with sales, and stress. Good night people... will I ever be able to fix this problem? We shall see...
