Just waiting for THE DARK KNIGHT

Well... the wifey is out of town for the night with her family up at a cabin near Ogden and I am here all alone. I talked to my long lost friend Bret and his wife is out of town so tonight is guys night and what better way to enjoy the night but to see "The Dark Knight". I have been anxiously awaiting this movie for months now. I think it is going to be... UNREAL. I will see how it is and give a review on this tomorrow. (assuming I wake up in the morning). I am supposed to be going to my butt kicking spinning class at 530 in the am... but we will see if that happens. Wait, don't waste your time wondering, we all know that I will be sound asleep in my bed. We better hope that I actually make it to work at a decent hour in the morning. 

Work has been going great for me. I work for a great homebuilder doing marketing and some sales on the side. I have thought a lot about "sales" recently... I think it is something that I am good at. Really good at actually... but I don't LOVE the thrill of sales. I certainly never want to be paid on commission only but I realize that this is where the big bucks are. What do I do? I have this inner battle within me. Not that my place of employment is even offering me a full time sales job, but even if they did, I don't think I would be able to accept it. 

When I was in high school I was actually hospitalized for STRESS. Yup, you read that right. I am such a perfectionist that I was hospitalized for stressing myself out. I took my role as the eldest brother very seriously and I felt that if I slipped up that the rest of my siblings would follow suit and my parents life would be a failure. Kind of crazy don't you think? But it is the truth. Fortunately I was able to overcome that for a time, but now I am back in the old stress saddle. I am forever going to be worried about being successful. I wonder if there is a solution to this dilemma. If any of you readers out there have a remedy for this... please share. Otherwise I will just keep trucking a long hoping for the best. 

I can't believe how random my writing can be. Look at this, in the short amount of time that I have written this, and you have read it, I have talked about the movie the Dark Knight, my dilemma with sales, and stress. Good night people... will I ever be able to fix this problem? We shall see...