Just waiting for THE DARK KNIGHT

Well... the wifey is out of town for the night with her family up at a cabin near Ogden and I am here all alone. I talked to my long lost friend Bret and his wife is out of town so tonight is guys night and what better way to enjoy the night but to see "The Dark Knight". I have been anxiously awaiting this movie for months now. I think it is going to be... UNREAL. I will see how it is and give a review on this tomorrow. (assuming I wake up in the morning). I am supposed to be going to my butt kicking spinning class at 530 in the am... but we will see if that happens. Wait, don't waste your time wondering, we all know that I will be sound asleep in my bed. We better hope that I actually make it to work at a decent hour in the morning. 

Work has been going great for me. I work for a great homebuilder doing marketing and some sales on the side. I have thought a lot about "sales" recently... I think it is something that I am good at. Really good at actually... but I don't LOVE the thrill of sales. I certainly never want to be paid on commission only but I realize that this is where the big bucks are. What do I do? I have this inner battle within me. Not that my place of employment is even offering me a full time sales job, but even if they did, I don't think I would be able to accept it. 

When I was in high school I was actually hospitalized for STRESS. Yup, you read that right. I am such a perfectionist that I was hospitalized for stressing myself out. I took my role as the eldest brother very seriously and I felt that if I slipped up that the rest of my siblings would follow suit and my parents life would be a failure. Kind of crazy don't you think? But it is the truth. Fortunately I was able to overcome that for a time, but now I am back in the old stress saddle. I am forever going to be worried about being successful. I wonder if there is a solution to this dilemma. If any of you readers out there have a remedy for this... please share. Otherwise I will just keep trucking a long hoping for the best. 

I can't believe how random my writing can be. Look at this, in the short amount of time that I have written this, and you have read it, I have talked about the movie the Dark Knight, my dilemma with sales, and stress. Good night people... will I ever be able to fix this problem? We shall see... 

Economic Stimulus Check

Gotta be honest... kind of bugged that I haven't received my stimulus check yet. I learned today that this is because they go by the last two digits of your social security number. My last two digits are 94. Thus, I am one of the last people to receive their check! BUST! They did say that it will be direct deposited in to my account by May 16th. I need my check now. I don't start my new job until May 20th... so I am kind of tight on cash at the moment. FRUSTRATING... But I guess I can't complain! FREE MONEY! Thank you Government for being somewhat generous and giving us a little extra this year so that we don't go into a recession. Unfortunately that cash is simply going towards my mortgage payment and credit card debt this month :( Gotta love life and finances. Ugh.

My first post

Well everyone... I decided that while the family blog is nice, there are occasional times where I want to express my own thoughts and more importantly frustrations and mixing that with beautiful pictures of my daughter isn't really appropriate. Thus, the creation of My Words.

My thoughts today are regarding the election. I am sure most of you are like me and are sick of reading about the election, watching it on TV and being asked about it wherever you go. Up until recently I was a political junkie. Most of that reason why it has changed is because my candidate of choice Mitt Romney dropped out.

This is my current status of my thoughts. It was a good thing Mitt dropped out. I still firmly believe that he would have been the best choice for President but it is the wrong time. The American people keep saying over and over they want change. While I believe Mitt would bring the appropriate change the majority of the American people believe that this change is a political party change. Thus, without a doubt the Democrats are going to take office. It is just the harsh reality.


This is where my issue has come. Am I a true republican if I start looking at the democratic nominee's? I have been extremely disappointed, even disgusted with the campaigns that both John McCain and Huckabee have run. I feel that their politics are dirty, corrupt and they will not recieve my support or endorsement. I feel that there is a large portion of the republican party as well as the nation that feel this way. They do not stand a chance. So I say Bravo! to Mitt for getting out of the race when he did and saving his money. All McCain and Huckabee are doing now is waisting their time. This is the peak of their political career. Enjoy the ride while it last boys... your joy ride will soon come to a hault and it will be embarassing.

I heard the speech that McCain gave yesterday. To be honest, it was the best speech that I have heard him give. He is trying and will continue to try and unite the republican party. I am afraid his work will all be for nothing and he will fail. I am a huge Doug Wright and Sean Hannity fan. I really value their opinion. Doug is for sure a republican but seems to be a little bit more neutral on the issue of democrate or republican, whereas Sean, even though he is not a huge McCain fan, he vows to select the candidate that is closest to what he personally believes in. This will be McCain if it came down to him being the republican nominee.

So where do I stand? If I look at McCain , Clinton, and Obama... I strongly dislike all three. If I had to choose one that is closest to my beliefs it would be McCain, but I really don't like him as a person. I feel that he is dishonest. I feel that I we would not be safe as a country, and for those two reasons... It is hard for me to bring myself to rally behind him and give him my full support. Even if I gave it to him, I still think that the Democrats will win. So which of the two democrats do I think are best? Great question....no doubt Obama is an amazing speaker and thus has had the power to sway the opinion of many. He is commanding and appears to have incredible leadership skills. But, I do not agree on any of his policies. I can't vote for someone because they "appear" to be a great leader or because they are great at speaking.

Hillary's policies are much of the same of his... but lets face it, she is a Clinton. I can not vote for her. And I am sorry... call me old fashioned, but I just can't see a woman as the commander and chief.

So do I even vote? Do I support Obama because I plain and simply like him more than Hillary and I know that McCain doesn't even stand a chance? This is what has been on my mind lately... I will let you know more as I figure it out myself. Until then... these are my words.